Usually, I feel a constant soft presence of God; the song on the radio that is exactly what I need to hear, the note left on my desk with the words I needed to be reminded of, or the random text that softens my heart in a moment of greatest need. But then we have those rare moments where it knocks us to our knees. That moment where everything else stops and you feel God’s holy presence in a hard way.
For me, this moment happened as I was in a season of life that took me from my composed self, to a hot mess express version of myself.
It was an in-between season of life where I wasn't feeling settled in any compartment of my life. And, if you know me, you know that being settled means a lot to my heart. I tend to lose grace, patience, love and mercy when my ducks aren't in a row. [I can breeze through having a couple ducks out of row, but not so much when every duck is floating in a different direction].
So on a very important morning in the midst of this crazy time, I was knocked to my knees by a text from my sister - and this was my Ebenezer moment.
In a season of begging God to remove expectations and calm my heart, I was struggling to feel Him moving at all in my life. Then, he used my sweet sister to permeate the deepest part of my heart. And as I read this, hot tears started flowing down my cheeks.
The message said….
“Good attitudes today!! Today is a new day. Just say you love him and try to feel for him the way God does. It helps me sometimes doing what love LOOKS like, even when I don't FEEL that much like loving.”
How true is that?
Loving when we don’t feel like loving.
Loving is choice.
And that is what we are called to do.
Just as we see in John 13:34-35 “Let me give you a new command: Love one another. In the same way I loved you, you love one another. This is how everyone will recognize that you are my disciples—when they see the love you have for each other.”
In the midst of the craziness, my conditional love comes out. And that is not what God had in mind when he said to love one another.
So my Ebenezer reminder was a smack in the face to see people like God sees them.
I promise the way you see and love people will never be the same.